I've been thinking about this post for a long time, and have decided that it's important to me to put this out there. I am usually a very private person, but starting this blog has forced me to become comfortable with certain parts of myself I preferred to hide and didn't understand until now.
The last few years have been extremely challenging for me personally. I'm nearly thirty years old, but for the first time in my life I feel like an can call myself an adult. This last year has been an amazing transformation for me, but an extremely painful one as well.
A chain of unfortunate events occurred in my life very close together last year, and as a result I started loosing weight very rapidly. People started to notice and although I got tons of positive reinforcement, the truth about why I lost thirty five pounds in three months wasn't because I had found some new amazing diet; it was because I was severely depressed and had completely lost my appetite.
All of a sudden, I looked in the mirror and saw a whole new me! I have to admit I was very happy about the outside, but the inside did not match at all. I'm thankful that I was able to find help and after many months of hard work and reflection, I am now in a comfortable place with myself.
I am still working on myself to this day (as we all should be), but one thing is for sure: I got my appetite back! I received so many positive compliments from friends, aquaintences, AND strangers when I lost all the weight. Since then I've started to put it back on and because of the overwhelming response I got from people, I started feeling insecure about how I looked. I was starting to be very hard on myself, but was then reminded that I only got that small because I WASN'T EATING FOOD!
SO, just as I had to get healthy on the inside, I now have to get healthy on the outside, THE RIGHT WAY. Every woman's body is different, but I can guarantee you it takes work to look good (well, for most people lol) and from my recent experiences, I'd rather do it the hard and healthy way because in the end, that's what's going to last!
September 2012 / June 2013
Change in life is necessary. Although it's never easy, it's up to you whether or not it's going to be for the better!
- Maya Angelou
I'll try this again because I think Blogger ate my original comment. Everything you wrote happened to me last year when I was 29. I was in a very bad relationship and I was depressed and I stopped eating. I lost 50 pounds in four months. Now I am 30 and I've gained weight back but most importantly I am out of that relationship. Now it is time to get myself healthy, both mentally and physically.
ReplyDeleteI'm 29 too! About to be 30. Thanks for sharing. I was hoping my story would connect with some good people :)
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